Yes, I'm complaining

I know, it's been a while. I'm just not a "daily routine" kind of guy.

You know what other kind of guy I'm not... (I know, you blurted out "straight!" Ha Ha.) I'm not a social guy. Now, here's the problem. Back in late Junior High, I decided "I wanna be a social guy and have lots of friends." That seemed great for a someone who was shy and introverted, and I spent the next couple decades making lots of friends. Now, however, I am 31 and I want to spend lots of time sitting by myself and reading or watching TV or playing on the computer. Except now I have lots of people pissed off when I don't want to hang out with them.

Before anyone gets mad, let's establish a few points. I'm writing this because I need some advice. It's not that a) I don't like my friends, b) I don't want to hang out with my friends, or c) my friends aren't important. It's just that I have lots of friends and when they can't or won't all hang out simultaneously, it gets a little draining on me. Having lots of friends is AWESOME. It's just that I don't have time to have an all-day hang-out fest with every single one each week. Yes, sometimes I can hang out one-on-one and make a day of it. But sometimes I can't. Because if I spend all day with Friend A, that means I'm not spending time with Friend B, or Friend C. And it really makes me feel like shit when Friend A gets pissed off because I take ten minutes out of our all-day hangout to talk to Friend B when he/she calls, or both of them get pissed off because I'm busy next weekend hanging out with Friend C.

--I'm posting this on here, because none of my local friends (the ones where this is a real problem) read my blog, so they don't know I'm talking about them, by the way.--

So, help me out people... what do I do? How do I tell Friends A-C, etc. that I don't want to hang out all the time? They all get upset when I spend time with someone else, but I don't want to stop spending time with all of them, and they can't or won't hang out with each other? I can't get them to merge, and it's driving me crazy. Especially since the only thing I really want to do lately (when I'm not RPGing) is SIT HOME ALONE!! But if I ever do that, they ALL get pissed off. I want to be an introvert again.

Oh, and I'm also upset lately because it seems like the only way I can talk about myself is to complain. Why don't I ever have anything to say when nothing's wrong? Isn't self-esteem fun?!

Oh, and I had a smoking relapse. Trying again to stop, but I'm really out of willpower/discipline right now, and it's getting stressful at work. Oy, my life is too nice to suck so much. I don't understand.