Eastern Artist's Block

I can't write! I can't draw. I can't seem to do anything creative. I don't have time to do anything creative when school's in session, because it's a little too busy--which I'll go into in a minute--and now that I'm on break, all I can do is watch TV and play Morrowind. Everytime I open up the word processor or pick up a pen and pencil, all that comes out is nothing worth reading or looking at.

Why is it that any time I have time to draw or write I can't seem to do anything? Whenever I'm too busy to be creative, I have all these great ideas. I mean, images of amazing things to draw fly through my head, and I have such incredible story ideas... and then... I get nothing.

OK, so about work... I thought that I would be working and I would have all these opportunities to do great renderings and build exciting costumes that were original and interesting, and maybe even write a few articles about all the things about theatre and costumes that excite me. I know that was a little overly idealistic, but I thought that maybe at least 20-30% of my time would be spend doing the things that I love most about design. I was wrong. 99% of my time is spent dealing with paperwork and guiding my students through the process of just barely getting by. My budgets are crap, my time constraints are ridiculous. I don't get any time to do the parts I like best.

Don't get me wrong, I still love my job, and it's nice to wake up and be excited about going to work, but more and more I feel like there's so much of this that I don't want to deal with. I want to deal with theory. I've never been a big follow-through guy, but come on. I don't even get to deal with the theory at all. It's just nothing but follow-through. I'm just getting frustrated. I'm sure I'll enjoy it again once I start back, but I hope the summer isn't just like this winter break has been.